His Footprints

I turn 25 in a couple of days and this may be a daunting or celebratory feeling for some people, daunting in a way because you start to think of all the things you wanted to achieve by this age. I am sure most of us had a list or ideally hoped that by this time we would either be married, engaged, with a child, living in your own house, or have your own business, dream job etc. Either way I have learnt that things do not always go how you expect them to go and that is totally fine, the main thing is not to become discouraged as I have been feeling these past few weeks. On reflection I have learnt so much about my self these past 3 years and the good thing is I am still learning and growing, what is important is not rushing the process and that all good things will come in due season.

There is a poem by Mary Stevenson called Foot Prints in the Sand, when me and my family lived in Swaziland we had a big framed poster of this poem hanging in one of the rooms, I used to read it every time I went into that room I love this poem, take a look…

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I want to put my own take on the Lords footprints, through out my life my relationship with God has been up and down depending on my circumstances or what I was going through at the time. When I was young my relationship with God was strong I never missed a day without praying or reading my bible, I was bold and confident when it came to telling people about the Love of God and who he was. As I got older the worries of this world took over me and my focus shifted drastically, I started comparing my life with others and I thought I was missing out on a lot of things, so I started running away from God, this lead to me eventually criticising every aspect of myself, I began to create my own footprints.. at the time I did not realise that I was creating my own destiny and journey by ignoring God and doing what I wanted to do.

Reflecting back I now realise that there is nothing more fulfilling than being in the Lords presence, I started to fill these voids that I had, trying to get other people to Love me, ashamed of who I was that I created this ideal me that everyone would like and I still was not satisfied and was left feeling unhappy and lost. About 3/4 years ago I had, had enough I was tired of running I needed to get closer to the source of my Life, I left a bad relationship I was in at the time and told myself it was time for change, being unhappy, depressed, feeling inadequate, feeling lost, living life with no purpose, & filling my voids with things except God was not my portion.

Making this decision is the best thing I have ever done, when you have experienced the Love of God and you become lost and found you begin to appreciate it more and you never want to go back to that dark place. He opened my eyes and I began to realise my self worth, that I am fearfully and wonderfully made Psalm 139:14, that before he formed me in my mothers womb he knew me, before i was born he set me apart Jeremiah 1:5 – God has gone before me and created my destiny and it is my choice if I choose to walk in the footprints that he has created before me. In the past I created my own footprints and if I had carried on I know my life would have turned out different.

My goal everyday is to make sure I am following in his footsteps, that I do not waiver from side to side creating my own path, because I want what he has planned for me and I want to fulfil his calling on my life. There is nothing more amazing than knowing that you are on the right track, yes you may stumble and fall but the goal is to be more and more like Jesus, to have his heart so that you may reject anything that does not look like him. This is a journey I want to stay on and experience the wonders of God, there is nothing like being in his presence. I want to encourage everyone to give him a chance.

 

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

John 8:12 – NIV

E.B

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Recharge Yourself

If you neglect to recharge a battery, it dies. And if you run full speed ahead without stopping for water, you lose momentum to finish the race – Oprah Winfrey –

 

Have you ever had that feeling of emptiness like you have been running on the low, that feeling when you have been running on empty for so long is not the best feeling to have. The crazy thing is some of us keep going till that feeling becomes part of us and we finally lose the momentum we once hard in the beginning to pursue our dreams.

The Oxford dictionary definition of Recharge – To Restore electrical energy in a ( battery or battery operated device ) by connecting it to a power supply. My take on this – When you have a fully charged phone its battery gets drained the more you use it, eventually it will die and you will have to put it on charge. Our phones need charging everyday in order for us to use them so don’t you think we deserve to treat ourselves in the same way? Its funny how we panic when our phone batteries are on 2% but we don’t feel the same way when we are running on 0% everyday, imagine if we treated ourselves and panicked the way we do with our phones when the battery is on low, how much more life would we have?

Instead Everyday we go to work submerge ourselves into the work life get home feeling soo drained that we don’t have enough ‘ME‘ time, we get into this routine of work, home, eat, sleep, this becomes our life and we start feeling drained, unmotivated, fed up and eventually we give up on life. All our plans and dreams are shifted to the back of our minds and they become a distant part of our memory that we once had.

Over the past months I have realised the importance in taking time to recharge and spend some much needed ‘ME’ time. I found myself being soo frustrated stressed out unmotivated with my dreams, goals and felt purposeless. All my energies were being drained and i was not restoring them daily, weekly or monthly so I began to write less create less, spend time with friends and loved ones less and most of all I seemed not to have time for God at all. All my focus was on the source that was draining me, you know when you have a negative friend and you keep pouring all your positive juices into them eventually you are going to run out of positive juice to pour out because no one is refilling your cup.

This is when you become Emotionally, Spiritually and Physically drained, I am learning everyday that it is important to take time recharge yourself and enjoy everyday life. Whether it is taking a holiday break every now and then even for a few days, reading a book, or finding time after work to work on your dreams this helps you focus on something other than work itself and gives your life more meaning. Also taking some much needed ‘ME’ time to refocus your energies, spending time with God every morning before you start your day also works wonders I found that every time I did this my day would go a lot more smoother, feeling less stressed out and having a different mindset. Romans 12:2 “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is-his good, pleasing and perfect will “.

Being stressed and worried is not my portion and neither should it be yours. Philippians 4:13 ” I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”

This Week…

I spent 2 days away on a spa break at the Hilton St Anne’s Hotel in Wokingham with my sister, a surprise organised by her very thoughtful boyfriend for her birthday. It was a much needed break away from the stresses of life and work. We really enjoyed the time away and got some much needed rest, I had the best massage I have ever had gosh even thinking about it now is making me smile so hard. We both had the hot stone massage where they used heated stones to help warm up our tight muscles it was soo deeply relaxing.

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They had such a huge outdoor space where we got to relax and enjoy the sun, there was also a beautiful conservatory where you can sit, relax, read a book or do whatever floats your boat if you did not want to be directly in the sun.

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I think my highlight was the amount of food there was available i don’t think i have eaten that much food in such a long time. We had all inclusive dinner and breakfast on both days and we really made the most of it, we opted to get room service on our last day and boy was it good. All in all taking time away was really good and gave me a chance to reflect on my life, my purpose and my longterm goals and dreams.

We all need to treat ourselves and take time out to recharge our batteries in order to function and not run out of momentum.

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Lunch Time…

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Room Service Breakfast

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Me and my Sister

E.B