His Footprints

I turn 25 in a couple of days and this may be a daunting or celebratory feeling for some people, daunting in a way because you start to think of all the things you wanted to achieve by this age. I am sure most of us had a list or ideally hoped that by this time we would either be married, engaged, with a child, living in your own house, or have your own business, dream job etc. Either way I have learnt that things do not always go how you expect them to go and that is totally fine, the main thing is not to become discouraged as I have been feeling these past few weeks. On reflection I have learnt so much about my self these past 3 years and the good thing is I am still learning and growing, what is important is not rushing the process and that all good things will come in due season.

There is a poem by Mary Stevenson called Foot Prints in the Sand, when me and my family lived in Swaziland we had a big framed poster of this poem hanging in one of the rooms, I used to read it every time I went into that room I love this poem, take a look…

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I want to put my own take on the Lords footprints, through out my life my relationship with God has been up and down depending on my circumstances or what I was going through at the time. When I was young my relationship with God was strong I never missed a day without praying or reading my bible, I was bold and confident when it came to telling people about the Love of God and who he was. As I got older the worries of this world took over me and my focus shifted drastically, I started comparing my life with others and I thought I was missing out on a lot of things, so I started running away from God, this lead to me eventually criticising every aspect of myself, I began to create my own footprints.. at the time I did not realise that I was creating my own destiny and journey by ignoring God and doing what I wanted to do.

Reflecting back I now realise that there is nothing more fulfilling than being in the Lords presence, I started to fill these voids that I had, trying to get other people to Love me, ashamed of who I was that I created this ideal me that everyone would like and I still was not satisfied and was left feeling unhappy and lost. About 3/4 years ago I had, had enough I was tired of running I needed to get closer to the source of my Life, I left a bad relationship I was in at the time and told myself it was time for change, being unhappy, depressed, feeling inadequate, feeling lost, living life with no purpose, & filling my voids with things except God was not my portion.

Making this decision is the best thing I have ever done, when you have experienced the Love of God and you become lost and found you begin to appreciate it more and you never want to go back to that dark place. He opened my eyes and I began to realise my self worth, that I am fearfully and wonderfully made Psalm 139:14, that before he formed me in my mothers womb he knew me, before i was born he set me apart Jeremiah 1:5 – God has gone before me and created my destiny and it is my choice if I choose to walk in the footprints that he has created before me. In the past I created my own footprints and if I had carried on I know my life would have turned out different.

My goal everyday is to make sure I am following in his footsteps, that I do not waiver from side to side creating my own path, because I want what he has planned for me and I want to fulfil his calling on my life. There is nothing more amazing than knowing that you are on the right track, yes you may stumble and fall but the goal is to be more and more like Jesus, to have his heart so that you may reject anything that does not look like him. This is a journey I want to stay on and experience the wonders of God, there is nothing like being in his presence. I want to encourage everyone to give him a chance.

 

When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”

John 8:12 – NIV

E.B

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Recharge Yourself

If you neglect to recharge a battery, it dies. And if you run full speed ahead without stopping for water, you lose momentum to finish the race – Oprah Winfrey –

 

Have you ever had that feeling of emptiness like you have been running on the low, that feeling when you have been running on empty for so long is not the best feeling to have. The crazy thing is some of us keep going till that feeling becomes part of us and we finally lose the momentum we once hard in the beginning to pursue our dreams.

The Oxford dictionary definition of Recharge – To Restore electrical energy in a ( battery or battery operated device ) by connecting it to a power supply. My take on this – When you have a fully charged phone its battery gets drained the more you use it, eventually it will die and you will have to put it on charge. Our phones need charging everyday in order for us to use them so don’t you think we deserve to treat ourselves in the same way? Its funny how we panic when our phone batteries are on 2% but we don’t feel the same way when we are running on 0% everyday, imagine if we treated ourselves and panicked the way we do with our phones when the battery is on low, how much more life would we have?

Instead Everyday we go to work submerge ourselves into the work life get home feeling soo drained that we don’t have enough ‘ME‘ time, we get into this routine of work, home, eat, sleep, this becomes our life and we start feeling drained, unmotivated, fed up and eventually we give up on life. All our plans and dreams are shifted to the back of our minds and they become a distant part of our memory that we once had.

Over the past months I have realised the importance in taking time to recharge and spend some much needed ‘ME’ time. I found myself being soo frustrated stressed out unmotivated with my dreams, goals and felt purposeless. All my energies were being drained and i was not restoring them daily, weekly or monthly so I began to write less create less, spend time with friends and loved ones less and most of all I seemed not to have time for God at all. All my focus was on the source that was draining me, you know when you have a negative friend and you keep pouring all your positive juices into them eventually you are going to run out of positive juice to pour out because no one is refilling your cup.

This is when you become Emotionally, Spiritually and Physically drained, I am learning everyday that it is important to take time recharge yourself and enjoy everyday life. Whether it is taking a holiday break every now and then even for a few days, reading a book, or finding time after work to work on your dreams this helps you focus on something other than work itself and gives your life more meaning. Also taking some much needed ‘ME’ time to refocus your energies, spending time with God every morning before you start your day also works wonders I found that every time I did this my day would go a lot more smoother, feeling less stressed out and having a different mindset. Romans 12:2 “Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is-his good, pleasing and perfect will “.

Being stressed and worried is not my portion and neither should it be yours. Philippians 4:13 ” I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me”

This Week…

I spent 2 days away on a spa break at the Hilton St Anne’s Hotel in Wokingham with my sister, a surprise organised by her very thoughtful boyfriend for her birthday. It was a much needed break away from the stresses of life and work. We really enjoyed the time away and got some much needed rest, I had the best massage I have ever had gosh even thinking about it now is making me smile so hard. We both had the hot stone massage where they used heated stones to help warm up our tight muscles it was soo deeply relaxing.

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They had such a huge outdoor space where we got to relax and enjoy the sun, there was also a beautiful conservatory where you can sit, relax, read a book or do whatever floats your boat if you did not want to be directly in the sun.

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I think my highlight was the amount of food there was available i don’t think i have eaten that much food in such a long time. We had all inclusive dinner and breakfast on both days and we really made the most of it, we opted to get room service on our last day and boy was it good. All in all taking time away was really good and gave me a chance to reflect on my life, my purpose and my longterm goals and dreams.

We all need to treat ourselves and take time out to recharge our batteries in order to function and not run out of momentum.

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Lunch Time…

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Room Service Breakfast

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Me and my Sister

E.B

The Art of Comparison

 

Comparison is the thief of joy – Theodore Roosevelt –

If comparison was an art I would be the best Artist out there in fact majority of us would fall into this category, the amount of time we spend comparing our lives running around doing things to try and keep up with the Joneses is actually quite ridiculous.

We unconsciously do it to the point where it has become second nature to us. The rise of the different Social Media platforms do not help either, keeping up with them comes with the art of comparing your self to everyone out there who seems to be doing great, looking beautiful or living the ‘PERFECT ‘ life. The worst thing is they hook you in and you become so addicted, take Instagram for example you spend hours scrolling through your timeline going through page after page, picture after picture by the time you know it you have spent an hour comparing yourself admiring people’s lives and wishing you had what they have.

Snapchat is another one I had to force myself to occasionally delete off my phone, there where times I would watch peoples snaps and feel like my life was not as fun or as great as others. It seemed like everyone else’s life was more exciting and I was just stuck waking up at 4am everyday working all the time. I came to a point where I had to detach my self from these platforms, so that I did not feel like I was missing out if I went 1 day, 3 days or even a week without checking up on them. Ridding myself of the addiction was a healing process for me , as every time I would see a beautiful girl on Instagram my comparison would kick in, If I could look as perfect as those girls I thought I would love myself more. Taking time out learning to love myself so that the need of comparison would decrease really helped me so much.  I came to the conclusion that in reality everyone only shows a snapshot of their life, they post only the best bits and the highlights and that no one is going to post about how broke or depressed they are just their own perception of how they want the audience to view their life.      

HOW to STOP Practising the ART of COMPARISON –

1. What you see is not always what you get

Its so easy these days to compare your life especially now that we have Instagram Snapchat Twitter and Facebook so many of the different social media platforms, where people post about their daily lives whether good, bad, sad, happy etc. the majority of the time it will always be about the good things. Its so easy to get caught up in envying other people and thinking that the people who always post amazing things are living this perfect life, what we fail to realise is that everyone posts the highlights what you see on Snapchat is only 10% of what really goes on in their life. A beautiful picture on Facebook will not show what a persons going through deep down, it is only a disguise to make people think that everything is perfect when in reality that person may be battling with self love or depression we are truly not seeing the full picture.

2. There is a time for everything

Everyone has a different journey in this life, some get married way too young, get their dream job, travel the world, get rich and famous and some prefer to wait till their much older to settle down and have kids. I was getting more and more frustrated with my self when I was seeing a lot of people my age getting their dream job, dream car, married, having kids and moving into their first home together and seemed to be living happy lives. Worse off when I kept getting the questions about what I am going to do with my life, I started to look at my life and wonder what I had accomplished apart from being in school and getting a degree, this made me become more frustrated that I did not have the things I was seeing other people with.

We always downplay our accomplishments and think they are not as good as Tom Dick and Harrys accomplishments someone else has to always do it better. Why can’t it be you? Listen!!! Just because you are not doing what all your age mates are doing it doesn’t mean your losing out or behind, some people will get there much quicker than others what matters is that you achieve your goals in the end. Just know that there is a time for everything under the sun and it might not be your time or season at the moment. –Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8-

 

3. You might not be ready

We want what we want right now and fast, we currently live in a fast generation no time or effort is put into things these days but the quicker you get it the quicker you loose it, especially if it’s not the right time for it or if you have not gone through the process. For example a pregnant women would like to rush the process of meeting her unborn child but the baby has to go through the process until its ready to come out, if not there are always complications. Same as life you want to be the best at what you do but you get what you put in, if you sow less time you will reap less. Self improvement is always a good thing if there are things that you don’t like and you can change them do it, whether its reading more books to expand your knowledge, practising that piano until you are as good or even better than that person you compare yourself to, whatever it is keep doing it and be patient your time will soon come.

4. Just Be You!

You are your own person there will never be another you, no one will ever talk like you, walk like you, laugh like you, dance like you and have your personality. Why would you want to be like someone else when God did not make a mistake – Psalms 139:14- ” I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” You are unique just learn to love yourself there’s real beauty in it that I cannot describe when you begin to accept yourself for who you are and all the little things that irritate you happiness follows. The need to compare yourself to everyone else becomes less and less important, Its easier said than done but its a process.

First LOVE YOURSELF Secondly FIND YOURSELF and when you do you will know who you are and no one can ever tell you any different Thirdly FIND YOUR PURPOSE – once you find your purpose on this earth you will know what to live for, to live for something that makes you wake up everyday alive and ready to go and change the world.

 

“When you Stop practising the Art of Comparison and Start practising the Art of Loving Yourself then you will become more conscious of your true worth”  – Esther Bogere –

E.B

Are you settling in life?

 

Nelson Mandela once said there is no passion to be found playing small, in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living. 

Honestly why should you settle for less in life? You are destined for greatness and God wants you to let go of all the mediocre things you keep holding onto because he knows that you are worthy of having the best.

Sometimes it can be hard to let go of situations, habits, friendships and relationships that are crippling us and stopping us from growing. We are so in love  with these things so much that we begin to feel attached and cannot let go of them. In the long run we have talked our selves into it so much that we become blind and we start believing that this is it. Our gut instinct has been severed so much that we stop listening and we become so insecure in ourselves that…

WE BEGIN TO SETTLE

Settling for that job where your work efforts go unnoticed, with a boss that talks down to you, and because you have let your bosses words soak into your heart you begin to believe that your worthless and you can never amount to anything.

You settle for that boyfriend of yours who has zero respect calling you all the names under the sun, and because of your insecurities you think you are not deserving enough to find someone who will love and treat you like a Queen, so you decide to stay with him and take all the manipulation and abuse. It is so bizarre how we act when we think we are in love, I used to think I could change my ex boyfriend and make him a better person, I thought that this is it, I will be with him for the rest of my life so this has to work, I even prayed to God and tried to make him see that I knew what I was doing. The whole time he was telling me to get out of it because he had better for me, but I refused to listen I thought I knew best, but in reality I was so insecure and I was looking for love in someone else because I did not love myself. Eventually my eyes where opened and I was awake and finally believed I deserved better, if I had paid attention to the signs and listened to God I wouldn’t have wasted time settling, instead I would have worked on bettering myself and knowing my worth.

You settle for those friends that only contribute to being takers in your life, with no means to elevate you and help you grow physically, mentally and spiritually. Your inner circle is very important as the people you surround yourself with will have an influence on your character, Just as it says in 1 Corinthians 15:33 ” Bad company corrupts, Good character”.

If you hang around with gossipers eventually you will find yourself joining in with them especially if your the odd one out. If you are around negative people you will start to act and think like them, their negativity will start to get on you and you will end up being infected like them. So evaluate the people around you, don’t be afraid to let go of these sort of friendships because of fear of being alone, God will bless you with amazing people who are going to make a difference in your life, when you stop settling with friends who are holding you down.

I remember a time of loneliness when  I did not have friends, I wanted them so bad that I ended up being friends with the wrong group of people. They would gossip, hurt me and discourage me, and we had conflicting ideas. For a while I ignored my gut instinct that was telling me they were not good friends and I should distance myself away from them, I was afraid of being alone. In the end I was hurt and betrayed so much I decided enough was enough, I thought I would rather be lonely and happy than be miserable and settle with the wrong group of friends. God would eventually bless me with great friends who would influence me, teach me, correct me and help me grow in this thing called life.

Remember! Beautiful People the decisions we make in life create and influence our destiny, so lets not be content with mediocre things in our life, let us fully trust in God to propel us to greatness.

He loves you so much that he wants you to let go of these things and fully trust in him, he has greater blessings in store for you that he wants you to have but this cannot happen if you are not listening to his voice, just let go and fully trust in him. You are capable of so much more than you can imagine.

Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you plans to give you hope and a future”.

EB x